Monday, February 04, 2008
February 2nd, was the cross-quarter day known in the pagan religions as Imbolc. Imbolc marks the half way point between the Winter Solstice and the Spring Equinox. I have read that Imbolc derives from words meaning "in the belly" as in the earth's belly awaiting the birth of spring . The earth with the spring thaw prepares to burst forth with the lengthening hours of the days with new life.
The sun is said to mark the four Quarter Days of the year (the Solstices and Equinoxes) and the midpoints are the cross-quarter days. Candlemas and Imbolc are traditionally a time to look forward. Shrove Tuesday and Ash Wednesday in the Christian tradition starts tommorrow and it seems to be an appropriate time to look within and ponder what can be reborn and renewed in your life as the earth slowly wakes up from her winters nap.
I have also been thinking about what the wants vs. needs in my life.The farther I get into middle age the more that I see what I want isn't necessarily what I thought I wanted and that I need very little to make me truly happy.
I grew up without a lot of money and I thought that having a nice house and nice cars etc where what made up a happy life. Now at almost 44 I know that what I truly want is very little. I want to have the love of my family, my animals, books, music and nature, a roof over my head and a car that gets me back and forth to work.
Since moving to Oregon I have come to realize that in fact I would much rather rent a house and not be in debt for mortages and the like and to not be tied down to one area/town as much. I find that the places that give me the most joy are communties with an active cultural scene,a good library system and the proximity to the Ocean and the Mountains. I have that here and for the most part the whole of theWest Coast.
I also have found that buying used(cars, books, clothes) etc isn't so bad for me ,my pocketbook or the environment as well. There was a time in my life when I thought I had to have a new car about every three years.Not anymore.I used to be really into scrapbooking and like some of the women in that community I thought when a new product came out I had to have it.I will give you an example of this for years the Canon Digital Rebel Xt was the camera to have . I got mine after much scrimping and saving in March of 06 and about 4 months later the came out with the Rebel Xti and like a lot of people I thought I really want the new one . Now I am satisfied with what I have and will use it until it completely falls apart and can't be fixed because for my needs it does just fine. I know that photograpy is a passion of mine and that I will never be able to make a living at it so for my needs what I have is just what I need right now.This has been a huge shift in my thinking and for that I am grateful.
Now when I think I have to have something that isn't a need I make myself think about it for months if it is a luxury purchase to justify if it is really something I am willing to work overtime for. I sometimes think how many hours did you have to work to make enough money for something I really didn't need in the first place. It seems to put things into Perspective for me.
On another note. Hip Hip Hooray for the NY Giants for the winning the Superbowl. I am a Giants fan because Eli Manning is from the area I grew up in and I am proud for him and the whole team today. I am always for the Underdog.
I also want to say a Huge Thank You to you all the last post prior to this one was my 200th and I also wanted to thank all of you who visit here. It amazes me that 52 people read my last post and commented. I am humbled. I appreciate all of you .
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens. Carl JungSwiss Psychologist