Tuesday, February 12, 2008

The In-Betweens

Storms of Life

I chose this photo today because it depicts how I feel today. Do you ever feel tossed and turned by the waves of life ? I do.

I got up at 3:00 am to drive my husband to the airport. He is going back to MS possibly to see his sister for the last time and it makes me sad to stay here. I know that it is for the best because of a variety of reasons. I know it is what he feels is best but it doesn't make me feel any better that he has to be alone. My husband has never had an easy path and she is the only living relative he has left of his immeadate family as my sister is for me.

Anita, my sister -in-law was born with spina bifida in the 50's when they didn't close it up like they do now. She is as strong a woman as you will ever meet. She has had some 30 surgeries but managed to work a full time job until her 40's. She has been married for over 30 years to her husband and raised 2 kids .Over the years she has battled numerous infections which caused her to lose both legs. Now she is gravely ill and her family has some tough decisions to make.

I know that what I have learned from her and my husband and the loss of both my parents and my hope of being a mother all in the last 7 years is this.Life is lived in the in-between moments , the everyday ones not the extreme joyful days or the great sorrowful ones but in the day to day.I know that I have learned from all of the experiences of the past couple of years that when things of this nature strike that it is the" Ordinary Miracle" days that you cherish the most.The things I cherish or not things but the laughter of my nephew , the voice of my husband, the soulful eyes and jumping joy of my dogs. It is seen in the beauty of Mt . Hood when I drive to work with the sun rising behind it or the majesty of my beloved Oregon Coast where the above photo was taken. .

I guess I just wanted to share this maybe as just a way to sort out what I am feeling right now.

I ask also that you remember Angela of Sweet Surrender. She will find out today the test results of her husbands cancer.I know how it feels to be there and I just ask that you keep her in your thoughts.The quote below I really needed to hear today.

Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake.
Victor Hugo


nannykim said...

I think I know what you are saying. But for me , all of life has been rich--I am not sure how to put it or what word to use to describe it. I almost lost my husband a year and a half ago due to an accident in his cancer surgery. i have lost both of my parents. These times of loss, of suffering and the other times in my life that have been difficult I see with different eyes now. I truly experienced the presence of God in these times and a sence of his grace and mercy and strength. I have found that these times have made all of life more appreciated --it has brought a new depth into all things. It has also made the reality of our life here being a vapor at the Bible says--it is quickly over and eternity has a much more focused meaning for me.

Mrs. G. said...

I'm sending good thoughts your way.

Lisa said...

My prayers are with you and your husband and his family during this difficult time.

Carver said...

You put it all so well. I'll be thinking about your sister in law and also Anita and sending out good thoughts for both. Also my thoughts will be with you and your husband. I know what you mean about the ordinary miracles of days and how they are cherished. I feel that way myself. Take care, Carver

AVCR8TEUR said...

I know how you feel except sometimes I feel buried by those waves when life gets too hectic and it's partially my fault for getting into that situation. Your sister-in-law is lucky to have like your husband to travel all that way to look after her.

Karen said...

Such a beautiful, inspiring blog entry about such a difficult topic...you are in my thoughts.

daryl e said...

Keeping good thoughts for you, your husband, his sister, her family and your friend ..

Dick said...

I wish you all the best, and remember if there is a shadow there must be light too.

Abbey of the Arts said...

a gorgeous photo, moving words, beautiful quote. Prayers and blessings for your family.

storyteller said...

I understand why you selected this photo for your post. You clearly have many issues churning within your mind and heart today ... and I'm sending prayers for you and your loved ones in these challenging times. Like you, I write to sort out my feelings, but I'm not always so brave as to share them as you've done here. Take care and may God bless each of you with assurance and love now and always.
Hugs and blessings,

bluemountainsmary said...

The photo is so wonderful.

Keeping you and yours in my thoughts.

Anonymous said...

I am beginning to learn that it is the sweet, simple things of life which are the real ones after all. Laura Ingalls Wilder

Hugs, praying for you and for what is around that bend in the road. Don't fear it for God's hand is on your life; He loves you.

Quiet Paths said...

Your sensitive insights in this post touched me deeply. Thank you for the profound thoughts. Holding you all in the light - blessings, Christine

Angela Marie said...

Oh Yolanda! I came to see yet another beautiful touching post. I appreciate you so much! You are such a sweetie.

I will be praying for you, your husband and his sister. This is a difficult time for you and your family as well. I am so sorry that you are going through this.

We went to the Dr. appointment. Only for them to tell us that the biopsy is still under the microscope. They said to call Friday morning to see if they are in. Maybe that day or Monday. He also had to have more lab tests done. Someone warned me about this. Tests and more tests. I just want the diagnosis and treatment started.


Thank you for your prayers and your thoughtfulness. I thank you.