Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Are you ever confronted with something that makes you questions your beliefs?
I recently was confronted with just that exact thing.Let me explain.
There is a local lady that I had an interest in becoming friends with as we shared some things in common.I offered my friendship and in reply she said that after reading my blog she couldn't be friends with a born again christian , republican,pro life person.It made me go back and look at my blog and really examine if I had put forth these characteristics.Would I be ashamed of these characteristics? No I wouldn't although they don't accurately describe who I am.
In going back and looking at what I have posted here I guess it does present what I believe more than sometimes I am willing to admit to myself.Those who have read here for any length of time know that I have struggled with my faith since losing my parents and a baby all within a span of 5 years. I have not attended a church on a regular basis since 2001 but find my self inextricably drawn toward the arena of faith at many twists and turns in my life.I have always sought a spiritual relationship with a higher power since I was very little. Our parents didn't attend church even though they both believed in God so it was only as an adult that I went to church. It was in my 20's and 30's that I sought to find a church that I felt at home in but just couldn't seem to find it because I was single or married with no kids(not by choice) and most denominations just don't seem to have room for these people especially in my experience(mine only) the Baptist faith of which I was brought up in so I stopped going to church as did my husband.
In looking back I guess I do believe and seek a relationship with a higher power more than I thought. I guess my belief is stronger than I thought also but in response to the person who said that to me. I am not ashamed of what I believe and am much more complicated than those labels she placed on me as a female from the south.
I also want to thank her for making me examine my life in this area so that I could explore and seek out the holy in my life and maybe find a home of faith this year that I feel I can be part of.In keeping with my journey of Simple Abundance this year I want to be true to myself and find the bridge to a better life that I seek. One that at its heart is linked to a higher power called God.I guess at its heart the Simple Abundance journey is just that isn't it?
"For God is not a God of disorder but of peace." ~I Corinthians 14:33