Tuesday, August 26, 2014
I havent been in this place in a long time mainly because I didnt feel I had anything to say.I have been in a drought of spirit for if I am truthful for years and years.I have often thought about blogging but my life is essentially dull. I work,come home and repeat. I got very disillusioned with blogging when it seemed that every blog I read or every instagram account I followed it seemed they had the perfect life the perfect house etc.That isn't my reality.
I wanted to restart this blog if for no other reason that I want to encourage maybe one other person who feels like I do that the valley, the desert , the canyon that feels so deep that there is a way out or through.
Life is hard, rough, messy for the majority of us. I have found it is okay to question, doubt and stumble. I have found for most of us it is never easy.
I have been off after having knee surgery for about 2 months and I go back tomorrow. The surgery was a catch 22 I had to have it if I was going to work but having it has put us in a financial bind. I have cried out to god during this time so many times that I can count but still no answers.
I am there with anyone else who is struggling . I want to walk alongside you and encourage you. We all need an encourager.
I want this blog going forward to be about my struggles and triumphs leading a stronger walk of faith.I would love to have lots of readers who doesn't but I really want this to be an online journal of my learning to be still and listen and how I learn to walk again in faith and trust.
I will be studying along with the She Reads Truth community the book of Hosea and my thoughts on the messages . I have been using the Seven arrows approach along with verse mapping and it helps me.
I am 50 this year and I know that more of my life has been lived than I have left but I want to make the rest of my years count.
I will still share books (its me you know) I hope you will come along with me the few of you still here as I journey inward to excavate my soul from the cement that seems to have encased it for about the last 8 years.