Do you find that at times your life seems cyclic?
I have found at midlife that it seems that (now don't laugh) years that end in 9 are years of upheaval and years that end in 0 are years of growth and possibilityfor me. Let me explain:
In 1989 I was just ending a valued relationship and changed jobs and moved to a new city alone without knowing anyone . In 1990 I learned that I was a survivor and that I am adaptable and I wouldn't have learned that if not for the year of upheaval before it.
In 1999 my mother became terminally ill and in 2000 we would find out that she had breast cancer and that she would try chemo but eventually stop to spend the rest of her days enjoying life her way. In 2000 I met my husband and my life again changed drastically. I learned during this year that life each day, each moment is precious and that we don't need to waste any moment of it with the what ifs. I learned that the most important things in life are family and friends and the times you spend with them and that as soon as we are born we begin to die and that is inevitable and something none of us can change and we all must decide how to spend the days we are allotted.
In 2009 my life so another upheaval of which I have mentioned in the past here namely financially but even through this I have learned a great deal . I have learned again that life goes on, that it is people and moments and those you love that matter and the other things are just things. I learned that it takes little to make a happy life and that my marriage is strong and is based on friendship. I also continued to learn that I am a survivor and that no matter what I still believe that life is worth living.
I chose the picture above because it visually indicates how I feel inside. I feel as though the storm clouds are clearing and that this year is another year of change but good change and is pregnant with possibility.I am sure along the way it will present failures and bad days but that is just part of the circle called life.
I want to have the philosophy that Robert Schuller used to say at the beginning of his sermons and that is "This is the day the Lord has made let us rejoice and be glad in it".
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France
photo found -claus rebler