Wednesday, January 06, 2010

Do you find that at times your life seems cyclic?

I have found at midlife that it seems that (now don't laugh) years that end in 9 are years of upheaval and years that end in 0 are years of growth and possibilityfor me. Let me explain:

In 1989 I was just ending a valued relationship and changed jobs and moved to a new city alone without knowing anyone . In 1990 I learned that I was a survivor and that I am adaptable and I wouldn't have learned that if not for the year of upheaval before it.

In 1999 my mother became terminally ill and in 2000 we would find out that she had breast cancer and that she would try chemo but eventually stop to spend the rest of her days enjoying life her way. In 2000 I met my husband and my life again changed drastically. I learned during this year that life each day, each moment is precious and that we don't need to waste any moment of it with the what ifs. I learned that the most important things in life are family and friends and the times you spend with them and that as soon as we are born we begin to die and that is inevitable and something none of us can change and we all must decide how to spend the days we are allotted.

In 2009 my life so another upheaval of which I have mentioned in the past here namely financially but even through this I have learned a great deal . I have learned again that life goes on, that it is people and moments and those you love that matter and the other things are just things. I learned that it takes little to make a happy life and that my marriage is strong and is based on friendship. I also continued to learn that I am a survivor and that no matter what I still believe that life is worth living.

I chose the picture above because it visually indicates how I feel inside. I feel as though the storm clouds are clearing and that this year is another year of change but good change and is pregnant with possibility.I am sure along the way it will present failures and bad days but that is just part of the circle called life.

I want to have the philosophy that Robert Schuller used to say at the beginning of his sermons and that is "This is the day the Lord has made let us rejoice and be glad in it".

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another. ~Anatole France

photo found -claus rebler


storyteller said...

One of the things keeping journals does is permit me to see the repetitive cycles in my life ... and how I've changed along the way so my responses shift ... usually in life affirming ways. May 2010 bring you many opportunities for joy filled growth.
Hugs and blessings,

Sue (Someone's Mom) said...

I find at mid-life (I may actually be past that) that I can't remember exactly what happened in which year, unless it is a move.

I think you have a great attitude for the new year. I hope things are better than last year.


Andrea said...

I, too journal and it allows me the privilege of watching GOD work in and through the craziness of my life.

Blessings, andrea

Anonymous said...

Oh, I am wishing you joy, comfort and goodness in the new year. I wish you the wonder of quiet gratitude, the abundance of being snug at night in your bed and slipping off into a restful and cozy sleep. (I think slipping into bed at night with quiet gratitude and comfort is such a blessing..does this make any sense?) Finding joy in each day, however fleeting and hard to see at times, feels like prayer to me.
May goodness shine down in your life and on all you love.

ellen (former growing gills)

Cloudia said...

Great post

Aloha, Friend!

Comfort Spiral

Karen said...

Absolutely--there is so much ebb and flow in life, so much building up and then letting go. And it seems to be different for everyone--everyone has their own cycle.

May 2010 bring all you desire.

Connie said...

Wishing you the best year ever :)

Finding Felix said...

This is interesting, a bit like you, I prefer the 'odd' years normally and find better things happen then.
And this year, I am hoping for lots of change after a couple of especially difficult years, so maybe I will break the cycle. But time for change is coming.
Looks like you will be doing similar...
Happy 2010

Bee said...

I have also been thinking along these lines recently. How interesting that you have detected a pattern, though. I hope that 2010 stays on track as the calm after the storms.

Nezzy said...

Ob-La-Di, Db- La- Da, life goes on. God is always working on us and we are always growing. Through journaling we can look back and see how the hand of God was moving in our lives.

God bless ya'll!!!

karen said...

Hope that 2010 is indeed a great improvement on 2009! Thanks for always sharing your inspirational thoughts :)

Deb Shucka said...

I've found that recognizing cycles helps tremendously when the dips happen. May this zero year be overflowing in abundant blessings for you.

SandyCarlson said...

I am a fan of even-numbered years for his very reason, my friend. At mid-life, one day at a time is a good philosophy.I hope this year is kind to you.

linda may said...

Oh my goodness what a year. It was for me to. Let us hope we don'y ave thins like that happen in 2010.I sooooo.... hope you are right, for you and me.

Marilyn said...

Thanks for visiting me today at Delights of the Heart. Your words are very special and this is the day the Lord has made.

Cindy said...

I love this post Yolanda and hope that 2010 is a great year for you!! I especially love the quote at the end...."All changes have their melancholy...." Isn't that so true?
2010 has been challenging already but I am trying to find the good things in every day and cherish the people in my YOU who I am so thankful for!!